While we ponder what is happening in our ordinary lives we should only think of today. Tomorrow is not promised to anyone. I hope to be my best today but the struggle is real not to gossip, be rude, want things that I don’t have and to desires physical touch. When I allow my mind to think of what I’m lacking physical touch is forefront in my mind. Touch is important to many humans. Even though, I am married physical touch is extremely lacking in my relationship. My teenage son gives me the majority of physical touch by his hugs and playfulness. He is very affectionate. What is sad is I have to find it outside of of my marriage. I look at today as much as possible and don’t allow my mind to wonder to far. At times, I want to seek out a man to give me what I am missing but, I know it’s wrong. You would think I’ve been married forever but it’s barely 5 years. I can’t explain what has happened. I have tried everything; talking, touching, explaining, brutal honesty and begging. He just states an excuse like “I don’t feel good”, “I have no sexual energy” or “No”.
So, how do you live for today when you are lacking a core hunger of who you are?
Woman at the Well 